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I’ve never really counted down days

But I find myself counting down days every single time we are apart. When we first separate, it is the absolutely, most horrid feeling that i have ever felt, that seems to only be muffled by the sound of her voice. But then I count the days, and every day that goes by, the feeling gets a little better, then I get to be in her arms again and its perfect. But then, the process happens all over again. I think this is why long distance relationships dont work out a lot of the time. It takes a shit ton of effort, and a shit ton of strength in order to handle the change in extreme feelings. But it is all worth it. 

Half a year

Yesterday was half a year. 
I’ve never been so content in a relationship for so long.
I wish Tyler and I had been able to be together to celebrate, but it’s not a big deal.
It’s weird to think so much time has gone by already.
It’s weird to think we really haven’t had that much trouble with our relationship.
It’s all just really weird to me.
But it’s reassuring.
It’s calming.
It’s just really really nice. 

There is literally nothing negative in this relationship except the distance. 
Nothing.
That doesn’t even scare us either.
Because it shouldn’t.
There’s no reason a good thing should scare anyone. 
Tyler is Tyler, Leah is Leah.
We work perfectly as our own persons just as much as we do together.
How this can be seen negatively at all is beyond me. 

Before:

I was afraid of phones.
I was legitimately frightened by them. I hated calling people. I hardly ever answered when someone tried to reach me. I would call my mom or my brother or a store every once in a while, but other than that.. nope.
 
Tyler told me he would change that and he did. We literally talk for hours every single day. It hasn’t changed me drastically. I mean, I don’t pick up the phone and randomly call people. However, I do answer when people call me now. Or if I miss it, I call them back as soon as I can. I call stores all the time instead of taking the time to search online. I give people my phone number along with my email when telling them ways to contact me. It’s incredible. 

He makes me stronger. He makes me a lot more confident. He just betters me in general.

I feel like that’s important in a relationship. You need to be with someone who helps you grow. I’m glad to have finally found that. 

I have never been able to talk on the phone

like I talk on thee phone with her :)

I think it’s mad cute when you smile.

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